finally im home with both painful legs n mind .... for some no reason, my legs starts to hurt not long after i start working. at first i thot it was the position i walk or stand is wrong but i dnt find things funny at all arh ...... i walk e way i used to, stand at a spot no longer den 2 mins but why?? i hate this 'sourly' feeling that im hving now, hope every thing will be find my tmr morning??

super stress week with a challenge to face every day, every morning every hour during work... my 2012 resolution: Apply for Degree or continue Working with my little pay OR change a place better? i have a feeling that as my age is catching up, i feel so empty with no achieve at all through my 20s of living n Studying. feel a big was of time by not knowing soooo many thing be it e news, fashion nor education....i just wish that one day i met something im satisfied with....

today still went for CNY clothes shopping, clothes at bugis are rising in price!!! is it because of the coming CNY?? pretty clothes are lesser,only left those funky or those 'not-so-nice' clothes
headache acting up again ~~ think i should get some beauty slp soooon

Smile always | 11:57 PM

NEW YEAR !!! 2012 !!! celebrate with my girl friend at our house's void deck with crusher n Lays sour cream and onion doh it does not taste sour but salty, hahahahah
hope 2012 will be a great year for my to learn and change or maybe e best to know more friends and get myself into a sch to achieve my final goal in education, degree.

Smile always | 12:46 AM

have been a while since im back to this secret but not secretive enof space to keep my feelings.
just pass my 21st birthday, it was a happy n also a disappointed one. Happy cause most of my frens made their way down for my bd chalet, im really happy n my gf who help mi alot with a after math hahaha not to forget XB, YW & YL for helping. my bf did help mi too but im still disappointed with him. he is not supportive enof. we had many fights due to the planning for this event. not everyone can be superwomen, 'dnt assume things " is wat i learn n wat i see in others n also most of e time, in him. why am i like this? some times i feel that there's nth left for mi to be worry abt so i can leave anytime but i realize i have not achieve anything yet. my dream as a patisserie have not come true i cun go n meet my grandfather yet. what lost cannot be taken back, like time. but i feel that im wasting my time not doing anything and i hate it, really hate it

Smile always | 8:20 PM

have not been updating since last year and many things has happen as days goes by.. ppl hv been fighting over peanut issue ... unwanted quarrels polluting the air hahahahah

all thanks to the change of weather that got me sick for almost a week and today being too bored and shag at home i decide to revisit this old place and old things that i used to do and read about

my relationship with him is not getting any better ... haha... fighting for nth but end up laughing all the time.... i dint know i changed so much ever since i met him until i heard comments about me flying around me ....

trying to set up a community web on fb but i just dnt get it .... like how to add like button all the procedure are making me mad especially with a heavy head and bad flu OMG....

tmr will be another week hectic week where i hv to work... haiz... hope to find a REAL goal that im suppose to be and will keep me going on

oh ya not to forget about http://eliteangels.livejournal.com

Smile always | 3:41 PM

wen to take MC for tmr as i was coughing non stop like i hving TB lo
i dare not cough too much in the public
cos u will know wat will happen if the older generations is near yo

wen clubbing ytd
slpt at 4am this morning and woke up for work by 6am lo
sad he nv come as he promise
got 'molested' by some idiot guys in the club lo
one jio me to dance with him but dat tym i was dancing on the pole
i refuse to move away from where i am from
so i requested him to dance wif me off stage
another one bump my butt like nth until i realize i feel so disgusted.
i slpt in the club and was laugh by this Caucasian
haiz
but wen i was asked is he handsome to you
my answer was ' my panda is more handsome '
hahahhaaa

Smile always | 9:20 PM

it has been a looooong while since i click into blogger again to post about my life my day
how was it all e while this and that... but i dont think anyone will read this other than Li qing..?mayb ....haha

i entered here cos i hv no whr to vend out my feelings
not telling my parents cos i know wat they will say
not telling others except my gf cos i know she will keep it a secret
i made several mistakes this October month
1st i should not have depended on him so much that i feel so hurt wen he ask for a break, if i nv called him that day all this would not hv happen
2nd i should hv trusted someone whom i believe will not betray my trust, i know this person is worried abt my but isnt a promise , a promise?? a agreement to keep the secret for me?? but how come i get ppl asking me about e issue which i did not even tell those ppl?? haiz....

fainted on e fifth day of my attachment at coffee club central baker's dry store .....
wen i was found it was a few minutes later....
strange thing happens
my chef did not call ambulance to send me to e hospital but keep to wake me up.....???
wat if my breathing or heart beat stops??
is chef gonna continue waking me up??

i am very sorry that i gave Terence a shock
as this is his first time witnessing this,
and i have explained to him what happen to me.
it seems that he was unable to take it anymore
haha
i was abandoned

i cried like a baby even though i promise i will nv again
but i have such a weak heart ever since i met him
we promise to give both of us time to think over it
hope that everything will be ok by 25 nov
e day he go to army, tekong
once again i cried like hell wen i heard that he received his letter to enter army 19 weeks earlier than e other into e 'Fatty club' lo haiz

oh ya and not to forget my birthday wish :

wallet, really nid one dat can be zipped
envelop size, long
colour hmm ppl who know me should know

tagger bag pack! or crumpler bag??

oh man
i simply need more clothes in my wardrobe lo
dono wat to wear every time i go out to meet my fren or club de lo
wearing e same clothes will be like.....tsk lo.....haha

fall sick due to the change of weather
haiz
slight fever at first early in e morning of my work
followed by flu
oh no sorethroat came first which disturb me for e whole night
i was unable to slp dat night
now all ok but hving dry cough
haiz

hv a hard lump under my chin which i dono why
it has been there wen i discharged from e hospital lo
hmm ... hope its not bad news
haha

wishing for a better tmr every day every night

Smile always | 9:50 PM