very sian this few days due to e coming cny
so many things to do till i find dat 24hrs a day is not enof for me to use, i dnt even hv tym to slp sia so scared to slp in night cos i thot i hv something dat i hv to do and i cannt slp now
super blur and tired now dono wat im typing liao
jus feel dat i neglect mama to much due to e painting of our hse super bu suang my bro who did not do anything ytd but i oso cannot blame him cos he was in army doing marching day and night haix
zzzzzz
K.O
to be continued

Smile always | 12:11 AM

today when out with qing to bugis to buy her CNY as promised, i oso bot e short jacket i wan and also e accessories i nid for CNY which is only pathetic dress for one day of CNY and nothing else
i dont intend to go out on my second day bcos i dono wat i can wear....
run away from helping at home where my sis and father are cleaning the wall and painting
i got totally.....knock off??bashed up??.....by em, they were so angry dat i wasn't there to help
therefore i decide to go back early nxt morning to do e cleaning so dat dey could paint wen i wasn't at home to help? i dono
i still dont think dat i will be happy for this year's cny or any festival, jus dont hv e feeling there
jus follow, get influence by others....
zzzzZzzzZzzzz, so tired from sch till i was slpin in bnf lec today slp in bus which i almost miss my stop....
i dono wat to continue from here, can anyone tell me how

Smile always | 11:51 PM

CNY getting closer and my schedule also getting more packed haiz
almost everyday i hv to do something from morning till night time and i still hvn finish it
it may sound confuse so am i, blur from day one till now and i still hv not get it clear yet haha
is dat a good point or a bad one?? my answer is ' i dono '

i feel so packed as CNY is getting closer to me, i get the feeling dat i'm afraid of seeing the moon or the night. it reminds me of the coming day and with the list of thing i hv to accomplish in 24hrs which is normally not enof for me.

tmr hv 2 quiz, one is fcs and another is french culture quiz which i hv not finish reading up until now. having headache now so i thot posting will help in healing e pain some how haha and i dont think this helps becos i hv to move my hands and use my eyes oh ya and also my brain.
tmr from morning 8a.m~~7p.m i hv class with only an hour break!!
i think i will hv to use dat tym to slp? revice? i dono, jus hope dat i dnt fall sick b4 cny cos i ardy hv e feeling. hv not been feeling well this few days and i really hate when my body takes a longer tym to heal unlike in past i can recover from a high fever from only 1 night slp btu no wi dnt think so liao now i old le engine getiing rusty, i wonder if my predict is true
that i may not live till the age of 20. will i really die at e age of 20?? i dono

to many things arnd me r giving me too much pressure i think haiz i nid some resting tym!! haha
but i rest too much in e past so now hv to work hard *_*....

'Wish to live long to see everydays sun rise"

Smile always | 6:29 PM

today wake up early in e morning haix feeling tired for a few days liao seriously lack of sleep
sitting in e bus make me more tired bcos it was like a lullaby to me
haiz many project datelines are near and i feel that i have nothing to do. all my grp members are too relax liao i think, make me feel dat project date line is nothing but a mark there
i try to make myself occupied so that i will not think of any other thing rather than my sch work?

until today, i find that my sis hv a blog!! and so is my cousins actually not so much surprise to me cos i should have know it long time ago haha but i jus could not rmb.
lacking of vit B makes me hv the symptoms like STM and lack of concentration, i think i nid to get some B pills to pop haha

feeling tired and restless today
hv been tidying the living room and my room for the coming CNY and i hv throw away SO many things, i am shock to knoe da ti hv so many things to throw haha
go giant wif mama this morning and bot alot of things, almost half of it are snacks i take but some are not. e herbal drink at e coffee(?) shop is damn nice, cun resist it I WANT MORE!

i drank alot of water today. plain, soy bean, malt grass, and soup..... i drank so much water till dat my stomach hv no more space for tonight's dinner haha but i still eat some as not to waste my mum's effort
ate too much today, hv a upset stomach
wanna do some thing now but i dono wat i can do or wat should i do. i hv many things out there i can now right noe but i dono which should i start with, i really dono wat kind of life i have right now bcos my brain now cannot function liao
i feel so stupid to tok to myself, or should i say imaginary fren? haha makes me think of my classmate robin haha e long beard guy. wonder how is he now, so long nv see him liao. i think i should say i hv not seen him since poly starts
miss my old days so much, but i was satisfied with wat i hv now cos i hv no choice

Smile always | 9:30 PM

have the oppotunity to blog again
cny coming i feel restless this few days, i jus feel so tired...i feel like i hv not taken any rest for a long tym and really nid it but i can't
i hv too many things to do but i dono whr should i start from?

test and datelines are coming like tsunami waves one after another
feel like im suffocating, i can't breath anymore
but i still wish to do what i can do and wat i enjoy doin

standing in the kitchen making dishes from raw ingredients keeps me occupied and i feel im a whole just like balloon filled with water.

Smile always | 11:29 PM

haiz today bring my laptop to sch to do my psy journal which is due tmr which i have forgotten over the week end......
till now i still feel that my laptop is very good for arm muscle training
it is heavy but small in size, can be carried by both or one hand
i feel that it was a kind of torture to me today as i have to stay in sch for long hours
arnd 5 hrs till my next lecture starts argh!!

but today i have 3 guys from my class who came to sit on the same table as me
they were having their own conversation most of the tym and i was doing my work
i think i will skip my lecture today after i have finished my work
because i was damn hungry now because i dont hv my lunch at all because i dont feel hungry in the afternoon for no reason
i felt strange today becos i wake up suddenly in the middle of the night and now i dont feel hungry until it is almost dinner time
?????????

i slag a bit to post because i have nothing to type for my reflective journal liao!!
feel like i was plagiarizing my frends work as i use his journal as a reference for my own journal writing, hope that i dont get caught by that haha
but he was a good guy in my class and he always keep my entertained haha
funny guy

having seafood feast tonight!! with lots of clams in very cheap price
yum yum

Smile always | 4:40 PM

finally i got a chance to post anything online again hhahaaha
was a long week day for me thiis week
i was rushing my BNF project work with my grp members and way b4 that we were chating about things and i thot i said something strange which cause them to have funny faces wen i ended on my part
mayb next tym i should be listening and not toking

on friday, 9th Jan
i went on a date with one guy and he was a bit boring to me as i was only the one asking question and he only answers them with short and (not ) sweet answers
i felt a bit dissapointed for THIS date as he was e one asking me out but i e one who plan on the schedule haiz

on saturday, 10th
went out with Qing to bugis and also to her polytechnic where i saw campus superstar 'chibis'
the youngest and cutest boy was really short and cute
bcos i saw him blushing on stage wen singing in front of so many ppl
in bugis i saw my primary sch fren with her boy fren and i was shock to realise that she was shorter den me....no offence here
the reason was way back in primary sch, she was mush more taller and (look) stronger den me but now she was small and slim with nice figure that i desire....*_*

and for today i make pineapple tarts at home which i dont really like the appearance
other have their tarts baked golden brown but mine was pale white with irregular shapes for the pineapples
but my brother and mum say that it was nice in taste
i think i that there is more i could improve on, but now i dont have the time any more to make all this things
i score badly for my BNF and FC for the lastest test so i hv to work extra had and score well

luck tmr was an off day for me so i could use that whole day in revision haha

thanks for reading pls tag b4 u go!!

Smile always | 11:51 PM

long hours of waiting in the library today until my next lesson
but luckily i brought my laptop along with me to school for killing time purpose.
and it is damn heavy to carry one one hand but it was odd to carry a laptop with both hands

if i need to carry my laptop every day, i can tell that my arm muscle is goin to build up and after a few months i will be able to go for weight lifting liao hahaha

after a few day of using my lappi without and internet access from my house
i realize that there is many thing that i can do using my laptop like
- listening to music
- watching anime show which i cope from my brother
-watch MV
-editing pictures
-typing report
-.......

see so many things to do with my laptop
but all of the above are just wasting of battery hahah

nowadays i have been thinking
'would anyone dare or willing to buy food product from blogshop?"
for a very long time i have been thinking of establishing a blogshop where i can sell cakes or desserts that i make to people who are lazy to go out to shop for food or enjoy net surfing

please people answer me!!

Smile always | 4:00 PM

today i and my sis BBQ sting ray which i and mum bot this morning and it was nice
just that: too much chili is added

then later we tried to make some takoyaki as my sis kip asking whether should we make some should we make some
and finally today i was faddub and so decided to make it

haha actually i also wanna play only


half eaten by me haha abit salty for this as i add salt to it as i feel dat flour mixture will make it taste bland but i was wrong, so nxt tym kiang jiu ho mai ge kiang (厉害就好不要加厉害）
this was our first attempt for takoyaki haha but mostly is made by my mum.....shi fu!!
yaki on the stove!!!
evidence of us MAKING takoyaki!!

having a hard tym finding a place whr i can really make one post
especially when u hv no internet at home
i dono what happen but i have not been able to use e net from ytd till now
but luckily i have work to do with my lappi haha

went out to meet with qing today for a little snack at mac
have a short but sweet gathering there haha
but only two of us were there
haha
tmr no sch yappi but have assignment to complete
haiz haiz haiz
GINSENG ARGH!!!!

Smile always | 9:59 PM

i had a strange dream last night and i wake up feeling tired in the afternoon
i was shock to see that the clock show that it is ardy 12 noon
i was rather rare for me to sleep until so late nowadays, normally i will automatically wake up at 10+ to 11 but today is special and i wonder why hmm.....

i might be rusty from fortune telling using my tarot cards but i still feel that this dream has something to tell. either something is goin to happen around me or to me
and i hope i will take forever for 'this thing' to happen haha...

a bad omen neh....

have been typing all day from e moment i wake up......
haiz.....
lots of assignment to do like:
bnf?
fc ( which is still untouch whr e date line is on 19 jan)
POD (still on process i think)
FCS (practiced ytd for only one of the dishes and the comment was -----)
PSy- creativity ( which is what i have been doing for today, but i still cun finish it as it require alot of my brain juices, information from the notes(?) and also thinking which is driving me crazy)

tried to find ways to relax myself abit too by listening to KoDa KuMi's song from my playlist and also reading books hoping that will improve my language for my reviews

have a small fight(?) wif her this evening, i think i'm have the potential in provoking people as i feel that a few words from me irritates ppl like my mum haha
but she know me e best although we are not blood bonded so she usually get over wif it
i thot of a bad habit of mine when i reach this point
that was ; i tend to forget what ppl did to me and will forget after a day for little things that are small

Smile always | 7:49 PM

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!
haiz another year now but i hv sch tmr wif stacks of assignment undone
haiz haiz haiz!!!

but i have to rush myself a bit liao haha
cos i feel dat i relax too much in e holiday liao nid to work hard abit

now is 2009 and i wish that people who read my post today will get my blessing
may happiness and fortune be with you
thank you :)

Smile always | 11:13 PM